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NASA-madness is a combined blog consisting of;
Naz, Aff, Sue & Ayu.
This is just a blog. The place where we rant and we have the freedom to voice out anything.
If thee have any objections against our saying, feel free to tell us off nicely, we'll be nice.
Ready or not the years are blurring
Running away the mind is turning
Skip to the end to find the meaning
Thoughts are fading, yet I wonder still
Like it or not your eyes are open
Playing around, the circles going
Face of a child, your mind is old
The clock ran down before I could begin
I wish we all could win
I wish we all could smile
I wish we all could make our mothers proud
Want it or not you just can't leave it
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever. That you've been gone.
Hello there. Writing to you. Just to ask you how you feel. And how we fell apart. Do you think about me? Do you miss your little sisters? When you lay your head down, how do you sleep at night? Do you even wonder if we're alright? It's been a long long road, without you by my side. We spent our childhood days together. After what seemed an eternity, we went our way. Worst, without a backward gaze. The love and laughter that we shared, in my heart will never be lost. I used to think about you and what we were going to do when i was a little. Are we growing up to be the same? Only god knows why i need you.
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever. That you've been gone.
Where were you when i needed you the most? My O's are just around the corner. Ever since you made that big mistake, everything have changed. Our family. Everything's different. Why didn't you think before doing something? You knew it was wrong all along. And yet you gave in to him. Now you have a child to bear and families to raise, we lived our lives apart. How could you do this?
I HATE YOU !!
I was also dumb back then. Why do i keep it to myself when i found out? Why do i think that you were able to solve your problem before the 9 months is up. You should have been responsible for it. You were only 17. I remember the days you were the greatest sister in my eyes. But those were just a long lost memory of mine. You did not set a good example for your younger siblings.
I HATE YOU !!
Now that you only come home fortnightly or maybe twice a month. Sometimes, i even forgot that i had a sister who's 19 now. Then i am the one who has bigger responsibility and bigger expectations because mum and dad knew they can no longer depend on you. The world is turning to me now. I may have all the freedom for nightlife and stuffs, but sometimes i hate myself because i go out too much. There will always be this guilt feeling whenever i step a foot outside. Why? I do not want to be the girl i used to be. Going out till late night, smoke, get myself drunk, involved in fights, shoplifting, had tattoos because i mixed with the bad company that almost destroyed my future. I deprived a sister's love. I swear i am lucky enough to realise my mistake and change before it was too late. God must have sent an angel to protect me.
I HATE YOU !!
And then there's this JC relief teacher in my school who's 19, just like you. She even looks like you, perhaps a little. I don't know why whenever i looked at her, she reminds me of you. I just hope she wouldn't feel weird if i stare at her or something. I even said i miss her to Mrs. Khiu cause it's you that i see through her. I had always imagined having a sister who goes to JC and then continue studying. Wouldn't it be great if you were to be just like her?
Well, is it too late now? I guess there's nothing to salvage.
Sometimes i forgive. Yeah and this time, i'll admit. That i love you, said i miss you, sister.
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever. That you've been gone.
Hello there. Writing to you. Just to ask you how you feel. And how we fell apart. Do you think about me? Do you miss your little sisters? When you lay your head down, how do you sleep at night? Do you even wonder if we're alright? It's been a long long road, without you by my side. We spent our childhood days together. After what seemed an eternity, we went our way. Worst, without a backward gaze. The love and laughter that we shared, in my heart will never be lost. I used to think about you and what we were going to do when i was a little. Are we growing up to be the same? Only god knows why i need you.
Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever. That you've been gone.
Where were you when i needed you the most? My O's are just around the corner. Ever since you made that big mistake, everything have changed. Our family. Everything's different. Why didn't you think before doing something? You knew it was wrong all along. And yet you gave in to him. Now you have a child to bear and families to raise, we lived our lives apart. How could you do this?
I HATE YOU !!
I was also dumb back then. Why do i keep it to myself when i found out? Why do i think that you were able to solve your problem before the 9 months is up. You should have been responsible for it. You were only 17. I remember the days you were the greatest sister in my eyes. But those were just a long lost memory of mine. You did not set a good example for your younger siblings.
I HATE YOU !!
Now that you only come home fortnightly or maybe twice a month. Sometimes, i even forgot that i had a sister who's 19 now. Then i am the one who has bigger responsibility and bigger expectations because mum and dad knew they can no longer depend on you. The world is turning to me now. I may have all the freedom for nightlife and stuffs, but sometimes i hate myself because i go out too much. There will always be this guilt feeling whenever i step a foot outside. Why? I do not want to be the girl i used to be. Going out till late night, smoke, get myself drunk, involved in fights, shoplifting, had tattoos because i mixed with the bad company that almost destroyed my future. I deprived a sister's love. I swear i am lucky enough to realise my mistake and change before it was too late. God must have sent an angel to protect me.
I HATE YOU !!
And then there's this JC relief teacher in my school who's 19, just like you. She even looks like you, perhaps a little. I don't know why whenever i looked at her, she reminds me of you. I just hope she wouldn't feel weird if i stare at her or something. I even said i miss her to Mrs. Khiu cause it's you that i see through her. I had always imagined having a sister who goes to JC and then continue studying. Wouldn't it be great if you were to be just like her?
Well, is it too late now? I guess there's nothing to salvage.
Sometimes i forgive. Yeah and this time, i'll admit. That i love you, said i miss you, sister.
ayu.
insanely madness*; at 7:39 PM
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Life has no meaning unless you understand it. It may take seconds or days to realise it. Playback what you've remembered, with that it changes who you are. Maybe. This is CRAP. No. You won't understand what I've said. I didn't know that people can change before your eyes and it takes moments for you to realise it. It annoys me though. How people show their true colours once you thought you know them truly. Fast-Forward. You are still on the same pace. People are far ahead. Lost. Confusion may be your bestfriend now. Used to it, like a family you've known all your life. The pain you endured is now a pain that's numb to you. Sensitive, you may call it. A hurtless insult disturbs your soul. How could it? That's when your bestfriend comfort you. Is this out of point. Don't know, don't care. Fruitling. Underestimated. Even by people you call a loved ones. It hurts. Hate is something I don't use on them.
If life was like an Anime. I would've have marry Hatake Kakashi and have babies. Well, lets just make BABY for the time being. Having Pakkun as a family pet tickles my funny bone. But how about the person who haunts my daydream. Ai. Being together with someone you least expected in your life. An acquaintance. It feels like an eternity.
suee
Life has no meaning unless you understand it. It may take seconds or days to realise it. Playback what you've remembered, with that it changes who you are. Maybe. This is CRAP. No. You won't understand what I've said. I didn't know that people can change before your eyes and it takes moments for you to realise it. It annoys me though. How people show their true colours once you thought you know them truly. Fast-Forward. You are still on the same pace. People are far ahead. Lost. Confusion may be your bestfriend now. Used to it, like a family you've known all your life. The pain you endured is now a pain that's numb to you. Sensitive, you may call it. A hurtless insult disturbs your soul. How could it? That's when your bestfriend comfort you. Is this out of point. Don't know, don't care. Fruitling. Underestimated. Even by people you call a loved ones. It hurts. Hate is something I don't use on them.
If life was like an Anime. I would've have marry Hatake Kakashi and have babies. Well, lets just make BABY for the time being. Having Pakkun as a family pet tickles my funny bone. But how about the person who haunts my daydream. Ai. Being together with someone you least expected in your life. An acquaintance. It feels like an eternity.
suee
insanely madness*; at 8:53 PM
