Saturday, November 12, 2005
Everythings going the wrong way. There's no sense of direction nor a sense of urgency. The stupidity of everyone seems to be making me feel very low of myself. What's up with me these days. Hope isnt a word in my dictionary now. The spot where its suppose to be is blank. How in the hell did I lose it? Yadayadayada. Voices in my head. It will never stop. Im in deep shit alright. Atleast, Emily Rose is having a scream of her life. Good for her. I stand amongst the crowd of friends I have but I dont know who the hell are they. Its scaring the fuck out of me. Everyone seems to be against me. Everybody's changing, or is it me. Have I become into someone who's a total outcast. I dont even know the real family I have before me. Or money has morphed everyone I loved into some kind of horrible monster. But when I tried to scream, no one heard me. Do they have ears to listen, to understand and to feel? Even a dumbass dont talk to me dumbly as before. Im just confused by the colours of the world. I think I might just runaway from everyone and everything I had before. Lets rewind and start afresh, you and me, how about that mister?
-suee